Love❤ and Relationship

Hello everyone! This is going to be another kind of post that I do not usually do. I have to admit that the later story on Jeannie Mai and Jeezy's relationship really broke my heart. This is a couple who seems to be going strong. This is a couple who seems to be perfect and united but we were wrong because recently Jeezy filed for divorce after 2 years of marriage. It is sad knowing how Jeannie Mai opened her heart about her past relationship and past trauma of her childhood. This is sad also knowing how she vehemently told to the world on TV that she did not want to have a child for many reasons (By the way I will have a post on such matter: Women who decide not to have children and people babyshaming them for no good reasons) and that later on, after meeting and being with Jeezy, she finally decided to have a child with a man with who she felt safe at last. I guess ...she did not know him enough or he was not what he made her feel. Now Jeannie is with a baby on her hands and the man that she respects so much is leaving. I truly do not understand men nowadays. I say and say it again there is no gentlemen in this world anymore. The gentlemen are left in the old days. Those of our parents. The men that we have now are just... a huge disappointment. ( I do not talk about exception. I talk about case in general. How they behave. It is sad and deceiving.)

(Picture source : People magazine) See, people sharing their perfect personal lives as a couple, posting beautiful pictures of loving kissing etc on social media means nothing. I mean absolutely Nothing. Do not get distracted by that. The real happy people most of the times, live in discretion. You will see Nothing about their love life. I know some people you don't know if they are married or not, you just see them doing their jobs, sharing some nice contents on social media. It does not mean that they are not happy or single. It just means that they need their private personal lives in the discretion box. I think it is a good manner of living. See, people writting big loving words to someone or shouting all their love to someone on TV or on public videos, all this means absolutely nothing because you do not know what is really happening behind closed 🚪doors. Dear readers as I always say: "Do not envy what you don't know!" Never ever envy someone else life. Never! Because only God knows the Truth. Really, the story of Jeannie Mai and Jeezy breaks my heart. ***** ***** The couple brought to the world this beautiful baby girl named Monaco that we all love and, jeannie Mai loves her so so much. I think she was surprised by the news like we were too because few days before that she posted a beautiful video with her daughter congratulating her husband . I guess she was shocked to learn what Jeezy decided to do anyway. This is shocking really. How can a man do such thing without telling you ahead of time? This is betrayal to me! Some men are sneaky. Some men are certainly good at back stabbing their love ones ...I mean I don't know all the development behind that relationship but serioulsy it is shocking. Nobody is perfect I know but this is not the way. As a woman, my heart is really sad for her. I will simply say Jeannie should wipe her tears, stand up again and move on with her life. She should not trust that kind of love. It is really sad to say it but it is unfortunately reality. Seeing their pictures on social media could not make me feel like something was wrong behind closed 🚪door. but it tells a lot about our days when it comes to love and relationship. If they still work on their marriage, ok why not? If they try since they love each other I hpe then...yes. But she should probably let it go and move on to a new chapter of her life. My mother often told me: "Do not love a man more than yourself. When a woman loves her man more than he loves her...it is not a safe and healthy relationship." The news report that it was due to some MINOR issues that made him file for divorce. Did you say Minor issues? o well... This sad story brings me to write this post on love and relationship in my blog today. Something that I barely talk about because I do not like to talk about it. To me love and relationship are very disappointing. People will Always disappoint you. That's why I wish I could only be on my own and never have any feeling for someone. Only love for God and my children that's all. Today I understand the verses in the Bible when Apostle Paul elaborates on marriage and relationship.“To the unmarried and the widows I say that it is good for them to remain single, as I am. But if they cannot exercise self-control, they should marry. For it is better to marry than to burn with passion” (1 Corinthians 7:8-9) But at the end Apostle Paul says being single is better.

Some people can be at their best and doing great things when they are single because they feel free. Others need to be married but married to the RIGHT person in order for them to do great things. They become at their best. I understand it a lot today. If you are married and happy I say good for you! If you are happy and living single life I say it is even better than being entangled in a bad relationship. Love is like a lottery. You picked the right or the wrong ticket. You win or you lose. You are married and you exceed in your life for the best and you are stable and happy. Or you are married and you see your life going backwards. Just sadness and frustration. Constant frustration, no evolution, struggles. You have No more inspiration and creativity . tgen you understand that:"It was simply not a good match". It is nobody's fault. Sometimes our decision, our choices are the reason of it. If you are in a happy marriage, then be thankful to God. Say thanks everyday because other people are struggling in this area of their lives and it is not funny at all. It damages emotionally a lot and can kill your joy of living. Really I wish to be sometimes not interested at all by men and live my life at peace and I will definitely work on that unless God has a different plan for me in the future. Never say Never. Women, we need men but only GOOD MEN or stay alone. Stay single. It won't hurt. Really it won't hurt. At least you can do whatever you want, enjoy your single life for the best.

Love and Relationship are definitely the most difficult part of life. You don't know who to trust. You don't know if that person worth your heart and trust. You don't know what he or she (if it is a woman) will do with your heart and mind. Everytime I pray for my son to meet the Right woman for his life when he will grow up to be a man. I really pray that for him. It is so horrible to wake up to a monster, a cheater, a liar, a manipulator, a crook, an abuser, a control freak and the list goes on. It will be sad to meet and marry the wrong woman because that will be a struggle in his life. Instead of soaring and striving , he will constantly be struggling because of the wrong choice. So God please spare him this situation. Protect him from rushing into a relationship. Take your time! Even if it takes longer than others TAKE YOUR TIME. There is NO competition in getting married. I admit that nobody is perfect but at least it would be great to respect each other. This is my short list of the people (man or woman ) to Absolutely Avoid in a relationship. I might be wrong but seriously after living, seeing, observing, witnessing this is it. I share my little experience: 1/ The Abuser: Any type of abuser is a NO NO. Verbal abuse, physical abuse, emotional abuse. You cannot live with that type of person. You will likely end up living in fear, stress, insecurities and mental health issues in the long term. Run away! Run away from them or avoid them period. The lack of respect is unacceptable. He or she doesn't respect you, does not respect and embrace your family. He or she is saying stuff to offend you. Cussing you. No way! Leave the place. It is non negotiable. 2/ The Liar and Cheater I mean...really? The fact that he or she (for a woman) is already seeing someone else while he or she still has you under the hands. This is the disrespect of it. Or the one saying they love you but they love someone else? or they see someone else? I heard stories from close ones. My cousin telling me how the guy told her : " I love you but you know, I also love another woman. I can't hurt both of you. I must keep you both" Wow! I told her why didn't you punch him or slapped him on the face and leave? Not only he tells you straight on the face that he cheats on you but he tells you that he has no respect for you, no intention to change and no regrets. My dear Bye! Sometimes ask them how they will like to see their mother or sister treated? The same way they do to other people mother and sister's? The disrespect of it. This man is a hidden polygamist for sure . Basically what it means to me is the man or the woman drops their clothes for different eyes/eyesight. The show goes on. Ewww!! No respect for their own bodies. You are going to sleep with two different women (or two men). If you do not respect yourself at least respect the other person for God sake! I do not believe that someone can love two persons the same way at the same time. This is a mental dysfunction. There is always the one that we love the most. Leave the other victim and keep the one that you love. I can never approve polygamy seriously. These men or women are real life human resources managers. Good for those who find their happiness in it good for them. I mean if I ever fall in a polygamy relationship, that man will never have peace even in his sleep. (Same thing for cheating. I do not forget and I will make sure that you remember that). I will make his life miserable and complain every single day. He will have to make a decision. Life is a choice. You can't have it both ways. 3/ The Players Players are that person who makes you feel like there is a possibility when in fact, there is absolutely Not. O God! I know I have been in it more than twice. Presently, I know my friend is going through the same situation. We have been telling him to block that person and to forget about her. We keep begging him to forget about that girl. Listen to me dear readers, When things are NOT clear, just know that you are wasting your time. That person is Already in a relationship. They are just playing with your mind. Playing with people's feelings is horrible , selfish and mean. They never apologize they pretend that everything is fine when they are done with you. But life is a cycle and a wheel. we reap what we sow and I am very careful on that in my own life. It is a divine principle. I believe that someone would do the same to them or they will live something similar or a painful situation in the future. But I told him when nothing is clear do not waste your time. The girl is using his emotion talking to him etc. (When she is already in a relationship I am 100% sure) I even talked to her with precise questions and I got nothing clear as answers. I told him look! forget about her she has a relationship she does not tell you the truth. We ususally waste our time thinking that there is a possibility. Use this time and energy for someone else that truly worth it. No my dear there is NOTHING. absolutley Nothing. Listen to me avoid this type of person in life. Mass destruction manipulator right there..You could use that energy and time for something else or somebody else. They are the players. smooth operators. 4/ The one who is always Right This kind of person you can do nothing good for them no matter what. They are always right even when they are wrong. Your discussion will take you nowhere. There is no way to be happy with that kind of person because they never apo;logize even when they hurt your feelings. 5/ The one who has never healed his trauma and his past breakups He will take that on you. You will definitely be the next victim. They will want you to fill the blank of their lives. They will use you ooo run away my dear! Some of them will make you feel bad and in competition because of their low self esteem. They will put all of their anger and trauma on you. Trauma can be: Bad family divorce, abusive parents, bad memories, breakups, abuses of any kind... They might repeat the same thing on you be careful. If that person is still hurt and wounded please send him or her to therapy first. They are never happy on their own. They will search for happiness outside of themselves. They can't be happy on their own. They need someone to be happy which is extremely dangerous. They will be depressive whenever things are not going their way. You are going to be their forever therapist and their punching bag. By the time you are taking care of their trauma of the past you are going to feel drained and empty and they will still require you to be happy around them and support both of you. You will feel like carrying a big Rock on your back everyday, and you will end up being depressive yourself with possibilities of mental health issues with time. i am telling you avoid them. Ask them or tell them:"please go see a therapist first, try to heal from your wounds... I can't help you my dear. I will wait for you by the time you recover." before jum,ping into a relationship with them. If you observe their love life some of them are never stable. they will go from one woman or man to another without healing the past process. I beg! no thank you . They had past or recent break up(s) and they want you or use you to fill the loneliness or the sadness of their past love. They will use you this is not love. run away. 6/ The Undecided one the one who never make decisions. You can be here with them for years they still dont know what they want but they will blame you for not making decision for them. Decision that they should take themselves btw. They are like kids. Their mom and dad must decide for them too. Ooooo goodness! We can't be perfect I know and I admit but these are the things that will bring you pain if you are around these type of people. Do not even try something with them. O! And last! the man or the woman who wants you to look in a certain way. My take on this kind of person is to tell them to go find the woman or the man they are looking for. You found me in or with a certain style or way do not ask me to change for your eyes or whatever. You are not my mother or my father. You should accept me the way I am. They want to transform you the way they see women or men. Nop! go find your doll. Thank you. Respect yourself, Go find your miss or mister perfect. I will not transform EVERYTHING about me for you to please you unless you do the SAME. You want to dominate someone go find your victim somewhere else. Not me! Christ died on the cross for me so that I can be free. I do not need another bondage. I think i am done for this post tonight I close this post with two videos of a lady that I watch on youtube this past few months. With time and the age I have now I am more and more careful about some details (the red flags!). Today I understand that it is important to always ASK THE RIGHT QUESTIONS. THE UNCOMFORTABLE QUESTIONS!I was naive and ignorant before but today no more...We learn from our mistakes right? Ladies if a man doesn't want you Do NOT RUN after him. Do not waste your time. You worth more than that. There is always someone who will love you the way you are. You are not arrogant or a princess with the pea. You are simply you. Just be you.

second video that I found interesting

and last being ghosted. Yes being ghosted hurts. It really hurts but Just understand that the bottom line is he has never been serious from the beginning. So forget about him or her. I beg! life worth more than that. Move on! it is ok to cry if it hurts but remember not to stay in this sadness too long. Go to the next chapter. Life is too short. There are many other videos she made about relationship topic

Gabon🇬🇦🌴 Always in my Heart❤

Mbolo! Everyone In this post I do not have a lot to say. I just want to share these wonderful Gabon Vlogs of Karelle and Olivier. It was their first time there> These Vlogs gave me some hope and reminded me that Gabon is still and always in my heart no matter what. Yes, I was and I am still kind of disappointed about many things back home but I only have one country. What can I do? I do not have an exchange country at all and I do not need to exchange it anyway. Even if it happens, this is where I come from. This is where my parents come from. This is my root, my life here. Gabon the last Eden on Earth where mother nature and the spirit talk directly to your heart. Serenity, tranquility. An exceptional experience that you will live nowhere else. Gabon where the wildlife comes to you as if it wants to welcome you. As you will see they didn't have to wait for days to see from their eyes the wildlife. Everything is pure and natural. And yes, they discovered the potamochoerus! And wait! They saw and were impressed by the surfing hippos!!! Actually our elephants and buffaloes surf in the ocean too. Lol! That happens in Gabon. Ok you have the contrast of the jungle, the forest, the mangrove and right behind you, the ocean. The savannah and plains are in the south part of the country. It is so magical like a gallery of pictures! That's the area of lions and so on but they could not go there. They went to some touristic sites and parks. They could not go to every parks because there are a number and for this trip, they only had just few days. The adventure was a complete story, a diary , between the obstacle of the roads but the experience to walk in the Gabonese nature (forest, jungle) made them feel like (the way I described it in my previous posts about Donguila) the explorers back in those days. The explorers when they first put their feet in my country. This is the feeling you get when you go in our wild nature. I guess that's the feeling that Jeff Bezos had when he recently came to stay in on the bungalows of Pongara Lodge. Next time I will do the same. No need to spend more coins outside. I will do my touristic trips at home in my country.

If you ever pass by Gabon 🇬🇦🌴 try to live that experience too. You won't regret it! Just get the right touristic agency to organize everything perfectly. Go Visit the different parks and bays: Loango, Pongara, Wonga-Wonge (where MJ went when he visited Gabon) Corisco Bay Sette Kama in Gamba, Cap Lopez, Cap Esterias and Santa Clara. You can also go to the Bay of Laetherback Turtles... and the list goes on) The couple made me discover even things that I didn't know about my own country on those few days. Like drinking water from the creeper on the trees. So when you are lost in the forest and thirsty just cut the creeper you will find pure water to drink. I hope to be doing the same adventure soon. *****Talking about Gabon, I recently published my first book about Libreville that you can find on Amazon. It islike a guide to live for newcomers******

Well, thank you Karelle and Olivier, your videos moved me so much and made me love my country again and again. My sweet Gabon. Once again I fell in love with Gabon. Thank you because your videos gave me some hope. without further ado these are Karelle and Olivier's Vlogs in Gabon. Vlog 1 ( First day Going to Pongara Lodge and the nature) They tell the whole story of their adventure. They wanted to kayak on the mangrove but the hippo was already there.

Vlog 2 they went to sleep in the heart of the forest. At the end they had their experience. by the way always I recommend you to always keep some snacks with you bcause sometimes the agents can be late to take you to one place to another and you might get hungry.

Vlog 3

Vlog 4 ( They went to the Bay of Shells) They went from Port Gentil, one of the main cities of Gabon to the bay.

Vlog 5 (Going to see the whales and they were lucky to see some dolphins but he could not film it because it happened just like that as he woke up from his bungalow)

Vlog 6 Visit at Nyonie and end of tehir trip in Gabon

Thank you for reading. You can also visit my website www.poshenvogue.com These are the lost files of my last visit in Donguila with a team (walking in the land that my father purchased and worked on) I was going there for what I elaborated in my previous post Donguila in my father's land. Thank you!

you can also go to this beautiful website: www.gabonwildlifecamps.com

Sometimes Writing is Difficult...

Really Dear Readers...Dear diary. Dear Carnet de voyage. This is the first time I write this way. I can't explain this feeling. And I can't talk to someone at this point. My mouth cant open. I can't express how I feel these days. Just a disappointment from the news I read here and there. Personal disappointements too. I have not talked to my mother for a while I don't want to talk. I can't explain. Sometimes writing is difficult. I mean I look the recent news back home too and I can't think properly. I am disappointed...Everything disappoints me. I mean I have no words. I give up. Also it feels like what you have been waiting for so long, now happens to you doesn't give you any excitement. like you have it but no feeling of joy and gratitude. still I am grateful though 🙏...And no life isn't easy. As for myself I miss everything. I thought writing would help but no...I am simply exhausted. Exhausted by everything. Does it happen tp you too? Or amI the only one feeling this? Please GOD help me!

There are moments like thatI guess. I have no inspiration these days. nothing at all. No desire to write anymore. I am tired of everything and people disappoint me too. Please GOD help me. People...disappoint me.. But when I am alone I try to take what relax me: music, good laundry freshly clean, good memories of childhood, lady perfumes. Also good memories of friends. moments you spent together, the laughter but ...Sometimes I feel like I just want to go and leave this world forever. I am tired. I am exhausted. I don't want to look back . I want to look forward but no more strength honestly. In my head it is like: What's the point of all this? What's the point to wake up every morning? Everything frustrates me at this point. I want to close all my social media accounts and my cellphone. I am tired. But that's the only way my family and friends can reach out. Sometimes I wish I could go back in time when I was a child and worry about NOTHING. Sometimes I feel like I am leaving this world already. I am in bed and I am like leaving. Fast heartbeats. I can't explain. I can only imagine myself meeting my family who went on the other side of the river of life. I am tired. Extremely exhausted drained. I can't anymore. I want to go no where. I want to write ✍ when I feel inspired to There is no justice in this world, there is nothing nothing nothing good in this world at this point. About my country I have no words honestly. There is no way I can't explain how I feel...but I don't want to be with people.. I mean nothing makes me happy these days. Crying isn't enough at this point. I want to rest that's it. I hope everything is fine on your side dear readers. I wish you the best. Bye.

Life Goes On/2

Bonjour chers lecteurs juste un court post/ article pour garder mon blog ici actif. Je n'ai pas beaucoup a partager en ce moment. Ici ce blog represente beaucoup pour moi. Cest comme un diary. un Carnet de ma vie

***J'avoue que je suis un peu epuisée par beaucoup de choses aussi. Les news actuelles et des choses personelles. Bref! Je vous dois un article sur les 80's et 90's Forever. C'est du travail d ecrire cela. Les best moments! Cette Chanson est mon inspiration pour cet article a venir

Parfois l'inspiration s'evade et il me faut du temps pour ressentir ça. Je ne suis pas inspirée en ce moment malheureusement... Dans mon website www.poshenvogue.com j'ai ecrit deux nouveaux articles. je vous invite a visiter le site et lire les articles. Mon nouveau livre est bien sur Amazon. Destination Libreville ❤ Vous pouvez vous le procurer en ebook aussi. En livre jai inclus une partie pages de votre propre diary of Libreville (The English version is published in ebook format)

Comment se passe la vie de votre coté? C'est la fin des vacances. La vie reprend son cours tout doucement. Quant a moi je vous dis a la prochaine dans un autre article. Je ne serai peut être pas frequente ces jours ci du a beaucoup de choses alors je vous invite a lire mes anciens posts ici dans ce blog. Merci de m'avoir lu et bye! Je vous laisse dans la Bonne humeur avec mes short videos