My Little Life in Gabon

Tomorrow starts the countdown to the new year Hello everyone. i am sharing with you my little life in my hometown. Libreville, little town. capital city of Gabon. The rules\laws concerning the pandemic is very much active here too and there is less to do outside. especially in a small town like mine. Yes, it can be boring at times... *** I am glad i published my book before 2022. I am done with it I am now almost done with the apartment renovation. It's basic stuff knowing that it is difficult to keep a place next to the sea. Humidity is the number one issue but overall, I am glad it will be good next week. It will be for renting purposes. That's for people who want to be in town for touristic or business purpose. They can stay few weeks, months in Libreville. Meanwhile i have started working on my family house (where I grew up) Renovation of that place requires a lot of more money, work and time. I am changing most of the style. The house was built in the late 80's. I was a little girl. So guess how much of the work i must do. There are 4 bedrooms and another one that was used as an office to my late Dad. He liked to spent his time there and kept all his documents. I might change it for something else... I am making some modifications. it cost more. Well, we will see. i hope to be done by early next year. **** So how has been 2021? i hope to share it with you in the next post. I am honestly not feeling like having a new year party. not in the mood of that sort especially with that pandemic climate. I just want to stay home with my son and nothing else. **** My vision board for 2022 must be effective. Time is getting short. I need to do more important things in my life. let's see what 2022 has for me. No need to do the same thing. Same words, same habits. no need to talk a out new resolutions let's just make things happen. *** I want to thank Almighty God for taking care of me and my family. I am thankful I am still here. Even if i didn't see my mom, my sisters and brothers for a while. i hope to see them next year. Thank you for reading see you next year. Happy New Year.

Some short videos uploaded

My daily life...enjoying simple things

At my niece's traditional wedding out of town

Going to eat...I like it

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A natural vapor bath that we make to fight Corona virus, flu, body pain,fever and fatigue. we use those leaves and barks. we boil them ...then you cover yourself and sweat papaya leaves, barks, guava leaves, ndolé, some times we add plantains tree leaves...

I went to an exhibition in town. Photographs ' work raising awareness about violence done to women. How important it is to stop such behavior

Family time. I went to spend time with my cousins a saturday afternoon. the lady made something on the barbecue for us at home.

that's it! that was my post on my little life in my hometown My website: www.poshenvogue.com

How Far is This America🇺🇸

Whenever I see the statue of Liberty, my heart is moved. My God, so much meaning, so much history. Gift, talent, the people...This is a masterpiece. I am in love with that statue.I have respect for what it stands for. It gives me so much love for this country. America the beautiful Ok. so the title of my book is "How Far is this America" The book is out in Amazon. If you are interested you can just type my name on the search bar of Amazon.com, Laetitia Meyo It is in both versions French and English

It took me longer than I thought because of all the turns and situation I went through: 1/ Lost of the manuscript 2/ Moving and trips 3/ Gave birth to my son (with a difficult recovery of C section) 4/ family matters and work 5/ I had to re write everything again from the beginning (in French first then in English later) 6/ Translation and editing on my own 7/ Mom duties

* * * * English is not my language so I had to review and review on my own. It takes time in both French and English. I did more work than the previous book. I felt compelled to write a story on immigration. But there is more to that. America is a great country. America has a great History. I have always been impressed by it. My father loved that country very much from personal experience. America gave so much to people coming to start a new life. It gave hope to those who lost it. America gave a second chance. I am not talking about politics and politicians here because that's another story which I am not interested to talk about. I am talking about America, the people who made that country great. May God bless this country. Here it is now. My book is here. The other version will be published soon in amazon too. I am glad at last it is here. Please be patient on the small beginning. Discover the story of Valeine leaving her small land to go to America. Her friend Lea who is living there, invites her to find more opportunities. She will discover an America diferent from the one she expected to be. This is a story of dream, immigration,hardship. But also deception. settlement and love. Valeine as you can see is the main character of the book. Thank you to my friends and family for supporting me in this adventure of writing.

Because We are Humans

Few days ago my nephew saw me crying in front of this song. I can't explain why whenever I listen to the lyrics and watch the video clip of this song my heart break into pieces. He asked me: " what's wrong Tata Laetitia?" (Tata is a sweet way to say auntie) I tried to explain to him how important it is to respect and like every people. You don't know everyone'story. We must be compassionate because we are humans. People leave their country not because they necessarily want to do it but some political, economical, social reasons. They usually engage in some extremely dangerous means of transportation such as crowded 🚢 ships. not safe at all. Some unsafe trucks and they end up sadly dying. Like sinking in the sea etc. The despair, the hope for a better tomorrow. Today we see so many things happening around us but tonight I want you to think about people in some part of the world who are going through a lot. They chose to leave their families for a better tomorrow. I cannot say that they intentionally choose to leave everything and their beloved ones. This is not an easy decision at all. Nobody can blame someone who dream about a better life because we are humans. It is so painful to leave your land, your family, your friends, your neighborhood, your pets and go to the unknown. Of course everybody doesn't leave their country because they feel oppressed but there are always some reasons that push them to do it. The song clearly talks about a man who is ready to leave everything: his village, his friends, what he has built and even his wife to go to a better country (that looks like America). He wants to leave because he has no voice in his country, he has no opportunities, he feels miserable. He is in search of the respect of Human Rights, his dignity as a man. He feels like his dream are taken away from him. He wants to live and be able to provide for his wife. But his wife doesn't want him to go because they are still young and they can start a family. They just got married what about their dreams together as a couple? Besides, he doesn't even know the future. The man has already made up his mind. He is leaving and that's it...His wife is not supporting his decision . she feels sadly in pain but she still going to watch him leave. That story is heartbreaking really. Some people go through the same situation. May God give strength to men and women who are going through this difficult times of their lives. Whenever I listen to that song my heart is sad. Because we are humans first. we need to be compassionate. "Labas" is a well known French song. Jean Jacques Goldman is one of the greatest French composers. This is a timeless masterpiece. Whenever I listen to it, I cry...

America has always been the place where people dreamed to go. A place where people foresee a better life. I truly love this country because America has welcomed millions of people to give them a chance. God Bless America the land of the Free. Please I am not talking here about the politics and so on. I talk about the people, the country. I have met so many nice people in America. May God bless you guys. May God bless America for giving opportunities and dream to those who could not dream anymore in their own country. May God bless the American flag for its History. Brave men and women shed their blood and vision to make this country great. Brave men and women made that country a possibilty of hope for others. The name America was hope for some people around the world. We can't forget it. Be grateful. May God bless America the beautiful. Next time I will go back I will love this country even more. * * * on another note, I am done translating my last book. It is going to be published soon. "How Far is this America" this is the book. I told myself no matter what, it has to be published before 2022. So I am glad it will finally happen and I will share it here. I hope the story will move and touch us. It has to inspire some of us. It is a story of immigration. See you soon before the countdown to the new year. Thank you for passing by and thank you for reading My post. You can also check my website: www.poshenvogue.com #### I end the post with this beautiful song of celine Dion. A song that reminds us that we never change in fact we are still the same person we have always been. yes, we never change indeed. there's something about us that can never change from the child we were to the adult we had become. I have always been a vocal person and full of energy. I like writing. I like thinking. I always tried to understand the whys the how's? I like the truth. I have always been compassionate. I love pets. I was always surrounded by male people all my teenage life. I forgot that I was daddy'sgirl surrounded by this opposite sex taking care of me. At some point, I thought I was a boy until I met that boy who made me realize that love exists and that I was indeed a girl. He made me have some butterflies. Holding his hand was just everything. yes, indeed We never change. I have always been loyal to my friends and family. It is my person. I must not fail my word. my word is so important. I must keep my word. it is my person but also my culture. I have my shortcomings too. like anybody but I have never been mean intentionally. I like that song. Who were you and who are you today? Tonight that's my question. I hope u love the song

about the book, it took me time and time because I was busy with so many things not forgetting that I am a mother so it took time. But tonight I just wanted to remind us that WE ARE HUMANS after all. Love your neighbor. Thank you for reading My website: www.poshenvogue.com

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This is what I was talking about few months ago in my older post "Victimization and the Racism card" When real case of racism will occur nobody will trust you anymore because some people used it too much in the wrong way and played with it. You don't play with Hate crime. You do not divide people. You do not divide a country. You don't do that. Something didn't add up when the story first came out.Now see?

I followed the story a while ago. The only thing that come out of it is: "why o why?" Why doing it? Well let's see what's going to happen after that. One thing may be sure is Jussie Smolett's acting career is over. He was found guilty on multiple counts in hate crime hoax. And by the way he accused Trump supporters of this and that. Why? Why doing such things? (sigh) Anyway. The other question is what is BLM's thought on it now? It will be interesting to know what they think about it since according to them the oppressed are us Blacks and the "oppressors" are the others (I won't put it here) I agree that in cases of politics applied in some countries in Africa for instance, there is oppression. Internal and external oppression but you have to carefully observe things around. I can't go too much into details on that. But as an individual? This is going too far now. I am just curious to see what they have to say about such lie. I still believe that All Lives matter. God cares about every lives. I think we need to talk about it with honesty. We, Blacks who have good sense should denounce such nonsense because it won't help us. We can't live stuck in the past. The History of the past. I repeat again: I believe that racism exists (in both sides btw) but the way some people use the word racism today worries me. I tell my young sister that when a story comes to you ALWAYS SEARCH FOR THE FACTS. Do not only follow your EMOTION. Sometimes your emotion can be right in some cases but not often.The role of the media and people like that or manipulative person is to pull on your heartstrings. Be always carefull when you hear something. i do not say I am perfect in searching facts and managing my emotion but I learn to do it. With time I learned that it is important to always do your research. Even when someone comes to you with his story makes sure that his story is true. We must alwyas ask the right questions. I learned it over time unfortunately after many deceptions and betrayals. Also, Thank you Sky News Australia. Always on point for news report. I like your work.

Our World is Changing...

I wish the young generation understood that quote from MLK. It is clear right? but, unfortunately... If i was asked what are the criteria for hiring a person in MY Personal business, I would respond: the content of his character and his skills NOT his race , if I was asked what are the reasons that make me friend with someone, I would respond: the content of his character as a matter of fact do not bring me discussion about Races. I don't need it. We should accept each other based on what we are not the color of our skin. I believe we all have different characters, some people are simply mean, some people are disrespectful, some are manipulators they like taking advantage of others weakness . it has Nothing to do with being Black or white. it is simply the who we are as a person. like there are people who are good heart, positive, humble,loyal, honest and courageous like the young man I watched in the interview below I hope people wil not politiCize it too. Someone should simply enjoy his freedom. When that story first happened, I followed a little bit the media coverage and again they failed to report the facts exactly. Actually they did what they always do, twisting the story to create outrage and anger as usually. And always some people who never try to fact check eveeything, bite to it. I don't understand how some people are easily manipulated. I mean...(sigh) how much of proof do they need to understand what is happening behind the scene? By the way Honestly, at 17 years old I don't think I could be so involved to protect my neighborhood. At 17 it takes a lot to do it especially when your city is burning down and you have many people angry breaking stuffs and businesses. At 17 years old most of my friends and I were doing what teens do. Without looking at his race or skin color or whatever, the first time I saw the video, I saw a young man defending himself. He could have been easily killed by his attackers. Thanks to God and his courage he survived the attack but... As always some people are mad and I am like... They protest his acquittal. I mean... does it mean that they are angry at self defense? or... his race or...like really I don't get it.l anymore. have you ever been in a classroom where you see a student or some students always contesting what the teacher says or teach. And when the teacher explains with all the facts, that student keep contesting the explanation based on nothing. Then, you , the other classmates are getting annoyed. You shake your head, you just want him to please shut up at this point because it is getting nowhere and he is actually getting stupid You tell me... Some influencers and activists brought the racist theory as usual. seriously Jesus please teach them Love they desperately need it. Seriously if i enter a discussion with someone and that person brings out of the sudden the racial theory without strong facts and evidence. I will smile and i will just politely tell him that i am done with that discussion

. I agree and I know for fact that there are racist people out there and we can do nothing about it but again EVERYBODY IS NOT NECESSARILY or SYSTEMATICALLY RACIST for God sake! and btw White and Black can both be racist. What even saddens more is when you see some White folks encouraging this nonsense. You guys should not encourage those attitude bc end of the day it is not written on your forehead if you like Black people or not. They will judge you by your race and Not the content of your character. There will be no exception unless they personally know you. They might treat u the same way. so encouraging it and supporting it will not necessarily put you aside. They will look you the same way. so please... These people need some pills a new medication named "Racialieve" It is going to be a new discovery. it will help some people who see systemic racism everywhere to feel relieved. the relief to racial pain and to remove that stress. it will calm the person down and the nervous system. So one pill day and night before sleeping . And you will smile to humankind.

This young man is brave and really care about others. I hope he will sue the people and the media who changed and twisted the narrative. It was unfair... this is insane!

watch the full Interview on you tube. I end this post with something to think about.

The Real Face of Democrats

O my...I wish I could stop talking and sharing about all this political nonsense. God help me. Please, please, please.

First, I precise that I like that song and his performances. It just came into my mind and I wanted to share it with you Second, I am sorry if sharing it here offends you. it is just a way to make that post less harsh since. I can't describe enough my disappointment mixed with sadness. I think it is important to seriously protect our children and teach them the way. ( according to God) As I was sipping my hot chocolate this morning, I fell into this article. I was like Huh?! Hold on! No! wait a minute! That has to be a Joke! please please please read it but you can as well do your own research on that matter. Maybe I got all that wrong. Maybe someone can explain it to me better.

Today I look at my anti Trump friends and I say nothing. people are quiet now they can't explain that. They told me on the election day that Biden was better. than Trump. See what shines isn't necessary gold. They voted for the team because they said they wanted to see a Black woman in an important position. But see like I said in a previous post it is not about what u look but the quality and the ability. the competency and the skill. See? You kept trying to show them the red flags and say maybe Donald Trump isn't the best but I am sure he is better than the coming administration. Now see?

Today you have the duo Biden/ Harris. Whenever these two open their mouth, you scratch your head. Honestly how are they doing so far? They can't handle properly the border crisis. and other things. People were angry when Trump said build the wall. Seriously my question to them was : Why are you mad at a leader who wants to protect his people and his country. I don't get your anger. Is it bad to ask to people to enter in normal port entries? I know you can't control such things but we know that America welcomed many refugees. It is another legal way to enter too and btw I saw how America takes good care of those who came on refugee status. ( Why going so far? There is a congresswoman I won't put her name here, who went in America under this status if I got it right and see? She lives the American dream today right?) Ok, Then let's all go illegally to America people! why not? Papa Joe is paying for us doing it. Well, it is time to do it people. thanks to the new administration. lol!! I am not criticizing just observing...

Now look, the mask is falling. now look the real Face of Democrats. they worry first and more for illegal immigrants than their own people. They are READY TO PAY REPARATION for people who intentionally broke the laws by illegally entering their country knowing the consequences. Look, I have Nothing against illegal immigrants, I think every people have the Right to dream of freedom, better life. the right to live safe and you can't control that need but I also understand that there are consequences on illegal immigration. Encouraging it isn't a way to create more tension in your country? create more division, xenophobia and anger? No wonder why people will hate immigrants even if they didn't come the same way. You know there are always ignorant people but the frustration can make people mix everything in their head it is basically like saying: " Congratulations! you who crossed the borders illegally, we are going to helo you as for you there entering the normal port entries legally sorry you guys are just a bunch of..." If you know the stress they make us go through at the international airport when you go to America. They ask you sp many questions to the point where u end up questioning yourself. It is Scary dear!; But we take it because that's the legal way to enter. Dear Democrats, then Why we, legal immigrants MUST GO THROUGH ALL These difficult laws, documentation and procedures to enter and live in your country spending so much money ( yes my Son is American, he won't go through all that but I talk about my own experience and I recently wrote a book on that matter)

Many legal immigrants will tell what it is. I will post the translated book in English soon and I might share a review on it. Then on the other side someone can just decide to break the laws enter illegally the border of the U.S and get REPARATION for violating the laws. I think about all the American people who are working so hard for their country's economy. I think about the U.S men and women in uniform (and their families) who are going overseas to fight for freedom and their flag. and I am thinking about all the legal immigrants who participate to make that country great. Dear Democrats you worry so much about Race and racial issues. Since you want to pay REPARATION for illegal immigrants because families have been separated, please think about Black America, during slavery. millions of families were separated for years! starting from Africa. They were intentionally separated btw. so maybe you can do something about it. I Think about Native Americans. o yes! I think they need that REPARATION first. I think about Asian Americans who were separated when after Pearl harbor some of them were sent back when they didn't have any more ties there. Things were taken from them as well. They were peacefully living and working in and for America when suddenly after Pearl harbor they were accused of being spies. Let's be fair for everyone. The mask is falling. This is the real face of the left. It is not about America first. or Americans first. it is about others first. You are the political party who always use the racial cards. You worry so much about racial issues and I applaud you for that now please please please, show us the love. As for me, judging on that hypocrisy, I think we need Orange Man back. You can visit my website: www.poshenvogue.com

There is No More Freedom of Speech

I am scared and I am worried about this new world in which we are living in. My question today is: Is there any freedom of Speech again? maybe my question isn't written in a correct English but seriously I am worried. Looking at the way someone can be treated by just standing for what he believes in or what he can just be saying and what he thinks. I thought dictatorship was just something found in some non developed countries like mine. I am shocked to see that the western world who always wanted to portray the ideology of Freedom such as freedom of choices, freedom of religion, freedom of speech and so on are now the one seeming to shut down that Human Rights. I find it quite disturbing. I am confused...With all those philosophical books writting to teach about humans relations, how we should be living etc. They wanted us to look the western world as an example and leader in many things and now today, they lock people up, they force you to wear masks. How do you eat and smile? Today , they control what people must think and say. Ok! can someone explain to me what's going on? Just to name few examples: Looking at the way people are forced to get covid vaccine or else you are fired from your job. I mean if people support women when it comes to abortion ( I am pro Life btw) They say "my body, my choice" why this same argument can't be applied for the vaccine? Some people say bc they can contaminate others. So why wearing mask again and practice barrier measures when u are already vaccinated? Can someone explain to me this thing better please? I need to understand. I am not educated on that matter. if I am not sure of how my body will react why should I take the vaccine? if it is ok to make a choice of killing an innocent life who cannot plead in Court With a lawyer on his side for his life ( whereas a serial killer can still say he is innocent and have a lawyer defending his case while the innocent unborn baby can say nothing and must accept a death penalty) I understand nothing about this world anymore. I am seriously confused because yes, some people who have been vaccinated can still contract COVID. does it make any sense?? I am lost. Looking at the way some people will focus on race, racial this and racial that. Let me tell you something, people who take too much time talking and thinking about races are actually hidden racist people. If you carefully listen to them you will get my point. they are racists with some complex issues of either superiority or inferiority. If you belong to God you should understand that God does care about salvation of the souls and not Races. As a matter of fact, the Bible doesn't really tell a lot about Jesus Christ's skin color. Humans are the only one making many speculations because what matters to them is what is outside whereas God looks what is inside. Who cares what color of skin Jesus was living in?

What matters is what He does for humankind on the cross. Race is not a discussion that God will certainly enter in. He will only asked Are you saved? He created different skin colors and races on purpose. let's accept and love our differences please! can we? We can make some hypothesis about how he looked like but we are not 100% sure. Just know that No one is perfect. We all have mean people in families, in countries, in neighborhoods and in races. Also, We all have good people in families, in communities, in neighborhoods, in countries and in races. I will never be the devil's Agent to spread anger , hatred and division. If in the same household, siblings from same mom and dad, we can have different personalities why not seeing the same thing when it comes to race? i don't get it! Nobody brings that discussion in my house. My parents never raised me to see racial differences. If someone bring that in my house, I will ask him or her to leave and go divide somewhere else Looking at the way some people are treated when they express and explain their religious beliefs. Christianity is the one mostly mocked and ridiculed eventhough the gospel of Jesus Christ teaches peace, forgiveness and love. Nowadays, if you even try to mention what the Bible says about a certain lifestyle, they call you haters and say you are judging them. But it is not you but the Word of God that says such and such. They want you to bend to their way of seeing life and put God aside knowing perfectly that after death you will have to face Him and be accountable for your action. Again, I am not judging, I am just trying to live up to what God expect me to do. I am not judging , I am not perfect. i can show you what the Bible says exactly on such and such. But no, they will throw stones at you because you're just trying to share the words.People will come up with many theories to justify one's actions when it is already said what God thinks on that matter. At the end of the day your thoughts against what God says will not remove the fundamental Truth. Jesus is the Way, the Truth, the Life. Now go complain where you want He is still sitting on the Throne you like it or not. and Gosh! we humans are difficult! People can no longer speak freely anymore. Before making a statement, they must kind of think and think then, apologize several times before saying something. like bending to get approval from Who!? the "They". The They who Decide what to say It is crazy! People died for us to use freely this freedom of speech and now some groups are like : " we will give it to you only if you say what we want to hear" Really now? We are going backwards? Looking at the way some people focus too much on race and see systemic racism everywhere. now we are living in fear of saying something. If you dare make a constructive comment on someone who has a specific color of skin, you can get in trouble even when the world can see you are right. Now I can't stop laughing thinking about that hypocrisy. wow! no comment. if you have for instance a certain or a different view about a social matter, or politics, you become a threat to...I don't know who. Wow! Wake up! can't you see things don't make any sense. Bob Marley back in the days sang a song starting with "get up,stand up.Stand up for your rights..." ok that was back then but...are we still on tne same issues today? that's pretty shocking to me So my look today is about what recently happened on the headlines. Again, freedom of speech isn't something to expect anymore. We are all different but it seems like this world wants us to be exactly the same. thinking the same, doing the same...I mean there are some groups ( I won't name them here bc maybe blogger will cancel again another post from this blog) who have the power to cancel you. There is a bad wind, there is a movement associated with the media today that make the world going into a very strange direction. I am worried... I am sitting here, reading the news every day and I am like wow! no comment. I prefer to say nothing but I close this short post with something to think about

Do you understand what's going on here? I am shaking my head. I mean we all know Dave Chappelle and his style of comedy. Now He is in trouble for what? for doing what he is Supposed to do. I mean...no comment. The media and some peoplehave this talent to manipulate or twist your words. They want to hear what they want to hear. they cut and spread things that u haven't exactly said. they do it their way. He said: " I am not bending to anybody's demand " That's a strong statement. yes, Dave Chappelle is the Man. Btw that doesn't remind you of a former president who went through the exact same thing? everything he was saying...ok! I stop right here. Please Lord save us and protect us. well, Stand for what you believe in guys. We are in the days where we must know our side. that's the lesson to learn from what is happening to him. strength to him. thank you for reading. you can also visit my website: www.poshenvogue.com

My life in Gabon

People ask me how my life is in Gabon since i left the U.S. First, I didn't leave like leaving...I went back Home because after my Dad passed away, I didn't reconnect with my country and my family. after 15 years, I think it was about time to go back home. I am African from a tribe who is really attached to the land, roots and culture. The truth is I am the only child of my parents who is back home now. My uncle sometimes says: " the spirit of your father was calling you " (smile) that's old saying to say return back home...People used to say the ancestors are calling you back to the roots. I am very happy I made that decision and if you remember about some year's ago I said something Was calling me back home and that was necessary because today i am learning so much! My life is so different and interesting. I don't say that my country is perfect. Not at all! but there are things that I personally do that make me happy. Of course I will go back to America but in a different time. I am ok. My peaceful state of mind is really accomplished when I go out of town. When I go to the countryside, my village, away from all the noise of the city, the politics. Away from the CoVid fear and drama. I understand now why my father liked Donguila so much! He would be going for work in many countries around the world but when he was coming back to Gabon, he would not stay in town. the day after his arrivals, he packed his stuffs to go to Donguila. There he will be relaxed, inspired to write and work on improving the lands he bought. Now i feel the same way. I am so thankful he showed me the way even if i was too young to understand... You have no idea how peaceful it is there and i am looking forward to spend my first Xmas vacation on my own there for the first time. I will see what i can do for people who are curious to stay in natural places. i still need to clean our home there and guess what? I am now the one who is taking care of what Dad left. Remember that video when I said Donguila i will be back for you. Donguila i didn't forget you. I know who I am and where I am coming from. When I hear the song in the video I made, i cry because there is so many memories. The song is in my native language and it talks about "Home". I didn't care much when I was young but now I understand. I get it. . it reminds me of the best family moments. I hope my son will follow this path. Do the same thing but better than me

A person without knowledge of his roots is like a dead tree. Never ever be ashamed of who you are, of where you're coming from. Never be ashamed of your culture. You can take me to the biggest luxurious place in the world, I will be glad but you can never remove my love for my little place called Donguila. I have a challenge to make it look good again. I saw my dad working so hard to keep it. unfortunately my son's father doesn't understand why I left America for this "lost" place. I understand some people have different culture. Mine is definitely different... When I went to my father's grave, I cried but i promised him I will be there for what he worked so hard. land is everything. He left something bigger than money. I have already written few articles about my village and my hometown Libreville in this blog. I miss many things. I still have old good memories but things have changed... It is a very difficult task To take care of the farm etc and you will understand why. Never did i imagine taking such responsibility. I surprise myself sometimes doing things i could never do. When returning home after many years, my cousin and my nephew took me to Donguila. the custom wants us to greet the elders first. Something that I did. However they asked me where were my two brothers? Not in Gabon. then one of them told me a woman and especially according to our culture a daughter is not supposed to take responsibilities such as working the father's farm etc. Sometimes old customs can be rough and heartbreaking. To him it requires a certain skill and ability. which is true. But Another elder responded right away, if the sons aren't here and not available then, the daughter can do it. It doesn't matter as long as she is willing to do it she will learn. And trust me i am learning. As i listened to them it comforted me to hear the last response. So yes, I can do it! The first days of work in Donguila were upsetting because everything was left with no care. I am talking about natural landscape from equatorial area. The ever green forest.Do you know what i mean!? You feel like being like an explorer seriously lost in the bush. That kind of soil grows herbs and trees very fast. And yes it is a rich soil for agricultural activities.Trust me working on a farm is a lot of work and patience. When i was young, i used to see my parents doing it and I thought it was easy. No it is Not! I must have a copybook and diary where i must write everything that i need to accomplish and what has been done. I saw my father doing it so I should certainly do the same thing.

and by the way i am still a working mom. I mudt take care of my son. I also hired someone who is taking care of the farm since i am not living there. i must always call and make the trip there to see what has been done. To be honest, I am no longer interested to work in offices, in buildings. working for people. Last time at my workplace i was sitting in front of my computer doing the same eternal job. Gosh it is boring! I was lost in my thoughts as i had the view in front of me, of the city from the big glass window and a sweet voice whispered in my ears "Donguila three times. My boss'voice was like an echo. i knew i had to go that weekend to my place but i am thinking about doing more in the land of my father. it is big and i can get more than what i make in that office. For now, I planted 31 Fruits trees (lemon, Orange trees, and trees that have local fruits) Today many young educated African s are going back to working the land. they invest in farming. this is the future for Africa i guess So how is my life in Gabon so far? Good! No regrets. I made the right decision. I share here with you some videos of my life and I hope to write more about my activities. in my videos i take you in the natural landscape and the peaceful water of my hometown with songs of local artists. Thank you for reading. Close your eyes and enjoy. listen to the sound of the waves. I actually don't live far from the beach. just 10 minutes walking distance. i like to go there and have the ocean breeze touching my skin and refreshing me. I like filming the landscape, mother nature...

with my young cousin, we went to eat some frozen yogurt

yes I am a foodie person! smile!

The view of the town, the sunset and the sea from work. People are going back home...that's our life in our little town you can see cars driving fast on the coast side of the town center

Time to take care of myself...

The day you go early at work , you are kind of bored. some days like that. So you watch the Same view of the city and how the sunrise and it gives this

and last not least my beloved land, my dear Donguila as you can see there are few more people that I paid to help cutting trees and the bushy grass etc. after this step I will be planting more. maybe you will follow my journey. I love the facts that antelopes are coming down there early morning to drink my river's water. I want them to feel safe in my piece of land.smile I have to be careful about the way I will plant pineapples because pythons like pineapples a lot. pineapple attracts them a lot because they use it for their venom. I learn all that...so I will buy a snake repellent.

and that old video with a well known Gabonese artist Oliver Ngoma I made it when i did not know how to edit and make videos

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Dear Little Sister

Dear Vanessa, remember the time when we spent hours listen to music together. Songs in English that we couldn't understand the meaning. just trying to translate a little bit. struggling to sing along with the singers but it was the best time of our life! (laugh) Yep! the glorious 90's. Today I can write some English how funny it is! Remember the time when we were young and happy. The years when we didn't care about issues. To us the world was just a happy place and our parents would remain forever young. Forever young we were in our head. Coming from school and do our homework. I would help you but then i would ask if you ate all your lunch at school? Because I could eat it too. Remember the time when we watched our favorite TV shows together and at late night in our bedroom we will still have conversations. Mom would surprise us, open the door and said it is time to sleep. We pretended to sleep and then back again in our chat. Remember in the saddest moment of your life when you went through the pain of not be accepted by your classmates because of your health issues. Being subject of gossip and mockeries. As your older sister, it hurt me a lot to see you sad and crying. I was angry I couldn't help you much. I understood that some parts of our lives, some tribulations can only be carried alone no matter how many people surrender you. At the end of the day it is between you and God. You would sit in front of the wall, Desperately put your Forehead on it and then quietly cry and cry. You didn't like and still don't like to show your weakness. That's the way you are. I am your opposite. I am very sensitive and too emotional. I could do nothing more than sitting next to you or behind you .I would just say some words to make you strong but you didn't see That I was crying a lot too. I hid my tears. I must pretended to be strong but I was also vulnerable in front of the situation like you... See? We can't control human nature. Remember the time when you were visiting us and then leaving us. It was painful to see you often leaving at the airport in our childhood. You were sometimes a stranger to me... The more difficult time was the last time you left home. I cried for days in my bedroom. I was glad to see you again years later. But please remember our talk about planning a trip to Spain together. I am sad the world is changing with Covid measures, but we need that trip together. Smile! I hope to see you again. I know we didn't grow up together much but the few times we had together were precious. I learned so much from you, from your difficult times. You are a force of nature. I don't have that strength. It is amazing how as a big sister, in times of trouble, I would always turn to you. Even cry on the phone talking to you or even cry on your lap. Yes, sometimes the big one needs the little one. You, in your quiet and calm attitude, You would listen to me carefully and you would find a verse in the Bible to calm me down. To chase away my saddeness. To give me strength. I have always been amazed by your gift and talent. We have some passions in common even though we don't always share the same opinion on some matters. We constantly challenge each other on some topics and history events. We sometimes argue but above all, we are family .You are fearless,I am your opposite. Fear forbid me to do many things unfortunately. I wish I could be less influenced by fear. I regret I didn't try some stuffs... Let's not live a life of regrets. I am so proud of you. Proud to be your sister Sorry if I have not expressed my Love to you very much or often . But you know I do...I do very much. This post is for you. I celebrate you today. I don't know how many years I have left on earth. I can be gone any day. God has our breath. But I want it to be a sweet memory for you. You will have this post as a memory of me. Remember to take care of my only son. You know my wish to give him to you in case of something happening to me. He is your son too. I trust you. We are family When someday I will no longer be, just know that I love you very much little sister. When I will be on the other side of the river of life next to God (I hope) Keep it as my proof of my love for you. I miss you...My strong little sister. your big sister Laetitia This is one our favorite songs. Remember how we both like to listen to it in our afternoons together. You liked to sing that song in your bath time too. How funny it was to listen to you singing through the door then i would surprise you and sing with you. "You Might Need Somebody" of Shola Ama. (she seems to like cats like we both do. lol!) Check your Facebook account, I tagged you with that song. ha! ha! ha! Souvenir souvenir! walking down memory lane Vanessa! My little sister I Love you!

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Elle Magazine Cover

Dear readers, Yesterday on the news feed of Instagram, I saw this cover from my personal account. This is the new cover of Elle magazine France. I have to say how impressed I was to see it. I screenshot it right away. I couldn't resist sharing it in my social accounts to my friends and I thought about doing the same thing here with you. I hope it will inspire you too. Really that cover moved me a lot. I am definitely looking to purchase the magazine's new issue (september 3rd,2021) and keep it in my archives . All my respect to Elle magazine France for this hard work. I applaud it. The young lady on the cover is a nurse in Kabul her name is Malalai. I think I read that she is 23. You have here 30 pages of an exclusive report on how the women resist the oppression. These women are courageous. I truly believe that Afghan women are strong women. Their courage inspires me so much. I saw last week some pictures of women in Kabul walking for freedom. You will read What it means to be a young woman in her 20's living in Kabul? How do they see the future under The Taliban's ruling? When I was young I used To collect the kind of magazines that taught me a lot about what's going on in the world. I would not miss the periodical issues. This cover and the main titles remind me of all that. We need more and more magazines like that.

Being a woman in my country, even though i am not happy about the way things are going, I must say i must admit that I am still thankful to enjoy the "some freedom" that I have. In some part of the world, women are mistreated. yes, we need to remember that All lives matter, women's lives matter, and Afghan women lives matter... You can also visit My website: www.poshenvogue.com

Hypocrisy at Its Finest

(Maybe this post will be cancelled too... who knows? O well.) Ok! now. Here we go again! Everyday you read the news and there is always something that makes you shake your head. Yes, like this picture above. It is late but I couldn't be quiet about that. As I am writing these few lines, I am thinking about a conversation that my late Dad had with his two friends back in the 90's. My father was so upset about the situation of my country. things and precarity in which the people were living in Did NOT make any sense At all! knowing what the country itself was producing. ( Btw a situation that has never improved but getting worse. no comment) That poverty in which a small population were living in, while all the goods and money the country was making, were going straight to a small group of those gravitating around the Head of the country... Because of that injustice and for that reason,my father decided to start political activism and then later on, he entered politics in his way. I saw our lives, my family life literally changed because of that decision. So, his friends in that conversation told him : " Look A. You can't be a politician, because your heart is too honest to be one" I think they meant by that if you want to be a real politician you must learn to be fake and being hypocrite when it is needed for your interest. But my father believed that we can't always accept to be quiet. When I was young, I didn't understand it but as I am getting a complete mature adult, I understand now what they meant. Seriously, it makes sense to me now. The more I read the politicians' antics, the more I kind of stop believing in their words. I think one of the most honest quotes from a president that still resonates in my head and a quote that makes sense to me is the one of JFK on his inaugural speech

, " Ask Not what your country can do for you, ask what you can do for your country " That's for me summarizes Everything! that quote means for me stop hoping and waiting for the government to do this and that for you. Expect nothing from politicians. Stop complaining bc it will get you nowhere. However, stand up, stop being a victim and bring your skill, add your two cents in the development of your country. Be a proud Patriot. Love your country. That quote is so pragmatic and realistic that if many people in the World understood it , things would have been different. Every morning stand up for the "walk of life". Anyway, now let's look into AOC's dress at the Met Gala. So, to those who maybe wonder what the Met Gala is? If you are familiar with Vogue Magazine, you might have read about that event. It is a fundraising gala for the fashion industry raising money for the costume institute. It takes place in New York City at the Metropolitan Museum of Art every year i think. They always have a theme for their outfits to wear. If I remember this year theme was " American Independence " last year was religion or something religious which I found kund of...creepy. lol! Well, to be honest, I saw nothing about America independence in the guests' clothing. Maybe some stars of the American flag on Serena Williams's dress. I don't know...I might be wrong. So, The contribution per seat is $30,000 at the Met Gala. Now, I really don't know if Ms. AOC went there for Free or if she paid that seat but being there with that printed words on her dress doesn't make any sense to me. My first thought was how hypocritical it is! judging on her position, I don't think she is anybody in America. She is a public figure. She is a congresswoman and so on. (Btw what really saddens me these days is to see how everything is now politIcized. Charity events, fashion , magazines, the Oscars, the Grammys, the Golden Globes...the list goes on. I mean come on! For that reason, I stopped watching these events.)

The part that made me shake my head even more, is when AOC responded "...what it means to be a working class woman of color..." yes she needed to add that detail. O my! They (the left) can't stop using the racial card to make a statement. can't they? Why always using race to make a point? Before being Black or White, we are Humans right?! Honestly, if she was just saying being a working class woman, I would definitely understand her concern. But why using the race to...? (sigh) ok...let" s move on to my thought on this post now. Her dress says "tax the rich" but then she is among those rich attending a luxurious event raising money for fashion. I said for fashion. Spending good times with them which is not a bad thing per say but why being hypocrite by wearing and displaying that dress? The question is maybe: 1\ Whose rich was she refering to? I admit, I don't know much about her. I am not interested to know more about her because what I read so far about her is she would rather care about the climate change than unborn babies'lives and yes I say it: I am Pro Life. (Abortion vs being Pro Life is another discussion) The truth is i am not a big fan of her ideology either. She many times says and do contradictions and to be honest, that picture of her with that dress doesn't surprise me anymore. She believes in socialism but she grew up ( can i say that?) in a capitalist country. and to me she seems to live in a bubble, her world away from reality. To me socialism seems to be good theoretically, good in appearance but please some young people need to understand that NOTHING IS FREE. THERE IS NO FREE LUNCH. IF YOU GET SOMETHING FREE JUST KNOW THAT SOMEONE SOMEWHERE IS SWEATING AND PAYING FOR YOU TO GET IT for "FREE" or free. If someone giving you something and says it is "free" maybe ask how and why it is free? You have to be naive to believe in free services, free this, free that... No it is not and it is even unfair to those who are working hard in that kind of system. this is a complete other subject. Not for this post. i don't know how many Americans can afford a seat at the Met Gala honestly? So far those that i saw on the red carpet are either Hollywood actors, athletes, some politicians... so to respond to that question, i think Not many i guess. Maybe ..not. Sometimes i feel like those "leaders" like AOC who are always trying to lecture us on how we should be living Our lives, are the type of the "do as I say, not as I do" (you know..like that royal couple living somewhere in California) and it literally exhausts me That hypocrisy exhauts me but what can we do? Mostly those of the Left know how to...you know? do it. At the end of the day, we should choose what and who to Listen to. Our children need to know what is right, what is true, what is important. Maybe before judging one should be curious to know what is AOC's net worth? How much does she make as a congress woman? I don't know...just some questions to have. Tell me what you think about it? I might be wrong but to me that's hypocrisy at its finest.

2 posts canceled?

2 posts canceled by blogger. uh uh! ok...well... I try to see what I say wrong? how did I violate the community guidelines? Was it my thoughts on terrorism? illegal immigration? or my analysis of the book Americanah? Losing a dear family member? I don't understand... I wish I could at least get a message about what i said exactly that was wrong

Otiti Design New collection

👗 @ Riverisland 👜 @ Otiti Design. . Hi! everyone today I thought I could share something different. something more cheerful 🌞 something for women. Otiti Design ( pronounced as oteetee. it's in my native language meaning the star) you can read more about that brand in the Facebook page and Instagram @otitidesign

the owner designer uses the special raphia of Gabon to make the new purses. it takes time and work because we like artisanal work. It is the new collection after the wax purses/ pouches that I showed you last year. you can also read the owner'story on the blog www.otitidesign.blogspot.com the brand used to have their website but things changed. We will open it again later.

Model 2 and others

there is something special about the raphia of Gabon. the way we work it. some people don't know until they see it we take pride of our natural resources and we want to share it to the world. you can visit the pages and encourage us if you want and like it. We ship them worldwide. as you can see I have mine in the pictures. I like our purses and our work. people who value handmade products will definitely like them. yes it is a new business and a new brand we are working on making our purses known. we make them with love.

👕 & 👡 @Zara 👖 @H&M 🕶 @Balenciaga 👜 @Otiti Design On a beautiful sunny 🌞afternoon 🌴☀️ in my hometown

I end this post with this song of a young Gabonese artist.

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Afghanistan...

Now ok! My question today is : where are the feminists? Dear feminists where are you? why aren't you walking and manifesting in support of women in Afghanistan?? what about their Rights too? why are you quiet about it? ( by the way i will have a post on why i do not follow feminism anymore) You Hollywood celebrities? why don't you use your social media accounts and use your platform to talk about what is happening there? you should be the voice of the voiceless. those who can't voice their opinion freely. those who do not have your popularity. we saw you talking trash on Donald Trump. pushing the Biden Administration to win and trashing the police every single day but why not using that same energy to talk about the death of women and children in Afghanistan? silence...

why don't you even manifest sadness for your own military dying there? we only see funny videos, fashion, parties but what about that situation?

You the international community or whatever you are called or call yourself. what are you doing? Do something! And where is the United Nations? always when we need you the most you seem quiet or unable to do something. what's going on? o my.. this world is sad or a cold place?

i am confused as to why the world is kind of quiet and doing NOTHING some people feel like what is happening there, isn't their business or concern. but you seem to forget that a threat somewhere can eventually become a threat everywhere. We seem to forget history...ok, well... My heart is really broken. i don't understand. I am still trying to understand the beginning of all that... Because believe it or not it didn't just happen like that. i go online and read as much as possible. it breaks my heart to see how the politics have played such an important role in this disaster some people around the world may not be interested at all about this situation. but let me remind you that when 9/11 happened we, i mean, WE All around the world paid and still paying for some reasons, the consequences of that terrorist attack. we are going through the stress of TSA etc at the airports. You must remove your shoes, your purses, this and that. Some women even had to live the humiliation of removing their tops even their bras yes, because of all these "security procedures" Yes, it used to be fun to travel back in the days. i remember we could just go through the exits with no worries and stress. but now it is a constant stress to go through this process of feeling constantly like a threat when they and you know that You are not. Do you remember when we could go to the cockpit and say hello to the crew? and ask to see the view of the sky? my father allowed me sometimes to do it while they put the automatic navigation. it was amazing! the view of the clouds, the sun was amazing and i thought i would be like him. So they were 3 of them in the cockpit i think ( i have to remember). the pilot the copilot and the third one of the team. After 9/11 it was forbidden to go in the cockpit and i read somewhere that they automatically lock it. It seems safe but not always. remember the story of that pilot who had mental troubles. they said he was a good student but little did they know about his mental health. What did he do? he made the complete plane going down to crash. nobody could enter the cockpit to help the other pilot. and basically passengers saw the end of their lives just like that. These are some of the consequences. As a former international student in America, tell me more about the consequences of 9/11. our student visa is extremely stressful. All thanks to those terrorists. These people need Salvation. yes they need Jesus. So I read that the Taliban are taking control of the entire country little by little Remember that what is happening now isn't just a coincidence. it is a result of many situations that only the leaders of this world know and yes we know it because we remember all the events. Remember that Afghanistan hasn't always been like that before. Just know that women weren't always dressed with burkas like that. Just know that girls used to get access to Education and had dreams like you and me. it tells you how things can change any time especially in political instability times. i know a little bit something about that. Dear God, How can a holy book create so much anger? i am so confused as to why and how a holy book can create extremism? i am absolutely Confused... sometimes i ask to discuss about that ro some friends who are in that religion but they always get angry when you even try to ask that question politely. And some people always find a way to justify that? come on! Nowhere in the Bible Jesus Christ preached anger and extremism. As a matter of fact, Christianity consists on love and forgiveness. people make fun of our faith in Jesus. Good for them. but clearly they have no solutions either. They make fun of Jesus Christ but the Bible doesn't teach us to bomb a place or to attack innocent lives. actually we are asked To pray for the forgiveness of our enemies. . Now dear humans, when people that you don't know protest somewhere. or cry do not always be indifferent because you don't know the tomorrow of your peace. Be curious and ask them questions. They might be warning you of something. Maybe because they don't look like you. maybe because they don't speak your language you don't care. but human cause is always human cause no matter what. Sometimes it is not about being Black or White or Asian...it is about being humans that's all. The fact that someone's country and culture aren't internationally known or may look small to your eyes or unknown to u, that doesn't mean that their country and their culture mean nothing. because there are people, families who share something in common. They make a country. they make a part of the world. thank you for reading . I would like to apologize for the quality of my writings. my computer has issues since a while now. i can't write properly. i use my cellphone and it is difficult because of my eyesight issues. but my mind...couldn't be quiet. . Now to close this post i found that video touching and i want to share it with you

and this is for us people of the world... Someone once asked me what's the point of fighting for justice, denunciation of the bad. the world is already falling apart. my answer is simple: if we have to give up on everything, what's the point of living on this earth? then let's all die Together without doing something. No my thought is to fight for justice till the return of our Lord Jesus Christ. fight for justice, the truth to prevail. fight to leave a safe place to our children, the generations after. we need to fight to put the light on the evil. push the evil away as much as we can. you bring your two cents in the idea of saving this world. we can still fight for justice , for hope. children need us and look up to us to show them the way. as the Bible says teach them the way. The way of the Truth. When people come up with all kind of strange theories to divide humankind, we who love justice and the truth must do the right thing. Tes this world is getting worse. but love is still abounding. we need more love in this world I see my son and i want him to know that we didn't use to live with masks on our faces. We were never forced to get vaccines in order to enjoy the outdoors and public places. i want him to know that a girl is a girl and a boy is a boy. No matter what they will tell him outside. i want him to know that Black or White or Asians we are all a Human race. i want him to know that in times of troubles, political instability, and oppression, being quiet is accepting and consenting with the enemy. he needs to know that some causes are simply human causes and not always about races. I see brave people protesting around the world against the COVID requirements imposed by The Deciders. It takes courage to stand up and fight for freedom. They want you to have vaccine passports in order to eat a restaurant etc. Come on! what's that? what kind of life is it? i want him to know that Jesus Christ is the truth, the way and the life no matter how many spiritual theories people will come up with outside. remember what the Bible teaches us. just be unshakable in your faith in the Lord our God. he must understand the importance of human rights. fight and defend human rights. freedom. freedom is important. freedom is everything. We were born free. respect people with their differences. keep the love and respect because we all seek for dignity. We all long for dignity. that's why some people leave their countries. Refugees, illegal immigrants, the homeless, the patient at the hospital. They all want and seek for their dignity. The minute you take away dignity from someone, you kill him inside ( picture: US Marine saving a baby) May God takes care of this beautiful baby...