Journaling...🌺🦋

Quite frankly, writing my thoughts and ideas have been difficult to do these past few months. It is even more difficult to create content when you lose inspiration ✨️ 😔 Writing has always been a part of me. It is a passion maybe... In fact, May and June have been hard time in my life. No good news at all and the worst was losing one of my dear aunts. Receiving the news from home was so so heartbreaking💔 I can never forget that afternoon and I wrote it on my calendar 📅 In my blog here I often shared family memories and how my aunts ( my Mom's sisters) are my Mothers and my uncles are my Fathers. I grew up seeing them often and my late dear aunt was often meeting us in Paris international airport every summer when she was living there at the time. My aunts and uncles are very dear to me. In difficult times when I needed directions and guidance in decision making, I would go to seek advices from them. Their words were even more important to me since my Dad passed away in 2017. when i was back home 🏡 my Mothers were all there for me during my pregnancy and after I gave birth to my son. I had a strong family support system even if my Mom and my siblings were not there in my country. My cousins are my siblings so i was not alone at all. My aunt would often bake good cakes for me and cooking my home country recipes. It was delicious!! My Mom came to see me for two months and then left few days after I gave birth. My other aunt did to me our traditional spa with hot water for Women who just gave birth. It was a special experience i must admit. It wasn't easy at all😅 but it is a part of my culture!🤷‍♀️ My beloved aunt passed away 😢 in very unexpected way and difficult condition. Like I have always said my country has a negligent Healthcare system.No matter what you can do, you have more chance to leave this world before God's time because of the conditions in hospital, lack of materials and the way they take care of you there. These are the reasons why I can't ignore the suffering we in my country are going through and it is not acceptable! After receiving the news on a phone call that afternoon, the word crying was not enough because I cried so much for days to the point where I didn't have any more tears and lost my voice. I have no more words but pain. Sleeping was not possible because it was a something thatI could not accept. The sad part is, we are not the only family who went through that and it is still happening for many others but what can we do? I can't recall the pain I felt when I lost also my grand uncle the year I went back home. I was going to visit him as much as I could bc he lived far from where i was staying. Until the day he passed away. His end was so painful once again due to the conditions in hospital. I, myself had my deceiving and painful experience at the hospitals back home when I went back. I can say the Healthcare system was way better in the old days. Unfortunately, today it is just a ...no comment. ( I keep it for myself) Therefore, journaling has been very difficult these past two months honestly After also receiving the news that my divorce was finalized, I knew that I had to get back on my feet and understand that I must move on. It is a total change and No, it is not a failure for me but a new beginning. I have learned so much from that experience and I will never make the same mistakes again in my life. Choosing the right partner is crucial and so important for your well being. I really understood later as i was searching and reading and praying that marriage is a Mission. It is two people who work together to accomplish a Mission sent by God. That is why we do not get married anyhow. We don't get married bc we have feelings only but we get married bc we have a call together. When I realized later I knew I wasn't in the right place and I made sense... BTW marriage is not the end of the world 🌎 so is divorce 🤷‍♀️ It is a new beginning... I just hope to be a good mother to my son.

I am trying to see how i can start over and make things right the best I can. Now, I am back Journaling and trying to refresh my mind and create content for discussions as usual because I have so Much in my mind! I have so much to talk about. It takes time to film and edit videos. Sometimes I can be lazy when I have to juggle different tasks. Writing ✍️ again and again. This year , this summer☀️ we are not moving at all. No specific trips at all. My son started his activities and me...what about me? I take care of myself🦋🦋 and I must take care of myself. 🌺🌺🌞🌞🌞🌺🌺🌺🌞🌞🌞🌞❤️❤️❤️❤️ I see beautiful pictures of friends on social media who are enjoying their time in Summertime trips. It is so nice to see pictures of places in Europe ( France, Italy, Greece..) and those who went to more tropical vibes like in Kenya, Seychelles, Comores, Tanzania, Mauritius... I dream through their pictures and i am so happy for them. I even saw a lady that I often see who went to visit India, South Korea, and now in Japan. Summer is the best time! This is so nice! i love looking at these beautiful trips and pictures ❤️🙏 Summertime makes families happy, Summertime makes lovers❤️ happy. That's good!😊 I am not sad at all because i believe that there is a time for everything.

My time now is to focus on me and my child. My time now is to see how to embrace the new life ahead of me. Wipe my tears and get back on my feet🤧 Sometimes difficult times are blessings. I believe in God and I know He has a plan for my life. Rise and Shine🌺☀️ He makes all things new and beautiful in his time. I celebrate with those who are celebrating 🍾 I am happy for those who are happy 😊 and in Love ❤️ because we all have our time! I can only move forward. There is no looking back. There is a time for everything. A time to laugh, a time to cry , a time to be happy, a time to be disappointed, a time to be sad and life goes on. All in all, we learn from each experience. Thank you for reading. 🌺🌺and I send you Love ❤️

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The best 👌 sounds that relax 😌 me 🐈 ❤️❤️❤️ I need a cat!😭 but i can't now 😕 I can put this sound on replay. They say in therapy and psychology that it is one if the best sounds to relax 😌 with and i definitely agree with that study bc i know for fact that this sound relaxes. you just need to sleep next to a cat 🐈 that's it!😊😊❤️