The Heart is Here and There

I love this picture. My cousin took that picture of me while we went to walk at the coast and seat on the rocks.Things are changing back home and life keeps going on. ******************************************************************************************************************************************* Sorry! Sorry! Sorry! I can't keep my mouth shut as a good African. I like to gossip sometimes but please can someone tell me if Kamala Harris is really campaigning out there? Because I barely see her active on the ground. I thought she told Taraji Henson on the phone that she was out "in these streets..." Mama kamala we don't see you enough o!👀. Please make yourself more visible. I put my glasses and I can't see you.I wonder which streets was she referring to guys? I personally only see her on TV talking with the Oprahzzz , mediazzz etc. You need to do like your opponent o! Go straight to the people talk to them. Address real issues and stop avoiding real questions by laughing because we know you.👀

And stop acting 🎬 These streets seem empty to me... You need to do more. I mean sorry, I was just asking👀. I beg🚶‍♀️🚶‍♀️. It was just a question. I say it because every single day I see Donald Trump live in cities after cities. From a State to another. rally after rally. The man is a machine seriously even after death threats and almost losing his life, he is still standing. I am talking as being neutral.. I mean That's why I said last time call him legend. He is legend! November is close we are just watching...eyes wide open!👀 *************************************************************************************************************************************************** Back to my post "The Heart is Here and There" I am lost in my world. This picture takes me back to some little sweet afternoons back home. I was looking at all my pictures with my son and my family. My Mom celebrated her birthday today and it was good talking to her. I have a full day of cooking tomorrow (Cooking is maybe one of the things I do often. I go to the kitchen I play my podcast or watch the news while cooking. It relaxes me a lot) So tomorrow is mangoes compote (My Mom showed me the recipe) crepes and Chocolate fondant ( a very French recipe) Today I have also made a meal so yes. In my country 🌴☀️and in my family it is a lifestyle. Cooking is art! 😅! We spend times together while cooking, women to women, we gather and we share stories, we laugh...I mean it is a lifetsyle. It is a good time. Here I am alone and I try to keep that tradition on my own by listening to podcast and the news... Recipes and traditional dishes of my country are so many! I am so proud of that part of my culture. I have a whole chapter on that in my book Destination Libreville. Cooking is a whole process . Cooking is art and culture that's why it takes time. I don't have all this talent but I know a little bit! A woman should cook with love ❤ and patience

I am learning to improve my skills even though I do not have everything from home here. I also try to remember everything that was taught to me. I know one thing: Everything that you do must have passion in it!

I miss you my little ville! I miss you Libreville☀️ my hometown. I was just reading a post that I wrote months ago about the mysterious sea of Gabon. Thrilling stories of supernatural beings encountering humans like you and me. Strange beings ruling their way.. And, I remember my best place to write at the time at 🏡home in my appartement. The best place was in my sofa! It was so comfortable with a beautiful view of the sea that craddled me and inspired me everyday. It was quiet but the sound of the waves of the sea hitting the rocks was everything! Hmmm! what a delight! I miss my little nest! My place of inspiration. The sun,🌞 the ships, the moon 🌕...I mean I was in another world. One of my best places to be...to get inspiration. The best place to make love ❤😉 too 😂 yes, why not?!

Another Day...I love the peace and quiet time...

Oliver Ngoma "Muetse" (to me it feels like being home when I listen to this song. It relaxes me so much! ) Oliver Ngoma is a singer of Gabon but known internationally as the king of Afro Zouk.😊

When I like to decorate my place or trying something different...I like to change stuffs around. ok! m, I don't like to see or do the same things over and over again. it is boring! Seriously I just can't!🤦‍♀ that's me.

That's a beautiful song 🎵 of my country ( a sad love ❤ story of a woman who saw her 💔 lover leaving the village and promising her he will be back for her but he never did. She kept coming to the shore of the river to wait for him days after days months after months in vain. Asking for him to fishermen but he never came back. She fell into his false promises) Nadege Mbadou "Muere"

But life must go on! Yes, my life must go on. I will be back... I am working on a project but really I do NOT have inspiration at all to keep moving. I feel stuck! Sometimes discouraged. Does it happen to you sometimes too? It was good watching videos of women of my age who are really positive and dynamic. Inspiring as well. Sometimes you feel like you have all the energy and sometimes you are like exhausted but life must go on! (and when you have a child is even more. So yes! I applaud people who have many kids. I will wait before having another one I beg! Because...it's a lot of work to be a parent!) And you Dear Readers, how are you doing? How was your week? I can't believe we are heading to the end of year 2024! Wow! Time goes fast now! We better not wasting our time doing not important things...I am trying to stay productive every single day but mostly positive but it is not easy

Last time I realized that I did not explain myself well on my last video and it could be misunderstood by viewers. For that reason, I decided to do a quick video on that!

Tomorrow Sunday will be a special cooking day after church! Thank you for reading and watching. I will see you soon in another post. Kimberlite Zouk ( French islands) La Nuit. Sweet memories of Summers in Paris 90's

The Downfall of a Star 🌟

Is it the end of Puff Daddy aka P Diddy era? This is a real live story of a star's downfall. I remember the year when Whitney Houston passed away, the media was calling her The Fallen Star 🌟, I have always disliked this title on her because she did nothing wrong . She went through a lot and that were the words they chose to call her. They could have found something else. However, P Diddy'story is a real story of a Fallen Star 🌟

I am so in shock of what I read days after days about P Diddy's case...This is crazy! It doesn't stop!! 😳 I thought we were done with serious cases like the Bernie Maddof, the Jeffrey Epstein, the Harvey Westein, the Cosby and R Kelly. But I was far to imagine what was coming this year. So who is going to be next? First, Let's see what will come out of this coming trial 👀 It is definitely going to be nasty if the man opens his mouth about the reality of that showbiz industry. Everything started with Cassie who opened the Pandora box after suing Diddy few months ago. Ha! Women! When I say never play with a woman. Especially when you have hurt her...hmm! you can't deal with it o! Then, the FBI who raid his mansions in Miami I think...Gosh! so many things happened like a castle cards! Watching on the news P Diddy being arrested and sent to jail, and all the story unfolding day by day, I am speechless...This is something that I could have not imagined coming like that eventhough this man's character never seated right to me with too much attitude The allegations are cra-zy! Some people have been denouncing his antics but I guess some people knew how to silence them . People have been saying that Hollywood is an EVIL place. Michael Jackson kept talking about it: " DO NOT bring your children there" Candace Owens keeps saying that Hollywood is a witchcraft industry and so on. And yes, because when you go online and make research about the origins and the beginning of Hollywood, and how it played through decades , you are like ...hmmm 🤔 maybe they are right. Hollywood by definition is about casting spells. So imagine through the years how their movies have been programming and transforming the morals and family values. hmmm No comment! i was just saying. Many people have talked but I admit that we have always been fascinated by the glamorous images of the red carpets the glitz, the fashion and hairstyles etc. We are moved by some artists performances. Yes, it made me dream too! I myself has been a movie 🎬 and music lover. I can't deny how amazed by some talents I was. I dreamt Hollywood like any other one. I fell in love with some male celebrities but today I am more careful because i see the machine behind that is destroying our moral and normal family values nowadays. They made people accepting the unacceptable and things that are anti biblical through the years...

There was a time in the 80's and 90's it was magical to seat in front of TV ( eventhough my Dad hated TV so much . I understood it later on...) and watching all these American movies and TV series that were teaching family values, Faith in God, Love and compassion for thy neighbors, bravery and being loyal but today we watch a different ways of viewing life. Today since the late 90's we kept seeing Rappers singing sex on TV, alcohol 🍸 Black women naked shaking their bum bum...twerking not knowing that it was in fact their real lives and I think our parents in Africa back in the days were right to worry about this type of music 🎶 coming from America bc later on I see that it changed our values and culture in a way...sigh It will be interesting to search for the reasons why everything started to be perverted in that circle of showbiz people have been saying that celebrities do not die Normally in this circle. These celebrities many of them have a very dark side and a dark past.

Now this is in one word everything described and unfortunately it is difficult to see that a Black man who seemed to be so successful in music 🎶 and business could have done so much evil to other people. Yes, today we talk about insane numbers of baby oils and sex toys in a mansion. ( and yes, as I said last time i believe that 70% of men nowadays are in baby oil that's why ladies you can't find a partner. And to people who have always supporting the same same, you perfectly know what the Bible says about that. Today, you have more women single not by choice necessarily. Because yes, God was not crazy when He did things in the beginning...) Goodness! They are so sexually addicted (Hollywood is sick!) to one another that they have no limits? This is what the Bible was saying they will be going down and down to in their addictions... Diddy has literally oiled up the game. Baby oils are the new norm? Baby oil 🛢 here baby oil there! wow!!😳 They talk about some freak offs parties that implicated many other celebrities and for sure some politicians...Wait and see. We will hear! Just wait! The list of his guests attending the freak offs is crazy. But seriously are we surprised? No. Not at all. But we are the same who are standing on our feet when we see them to applaud them instead of calling them out for what they do. I am glad many more victims will be coming to talk . We are the same who run to them and scream their names with excitement just to get a picture and autograph...This is our sad world. We are applauding the people who are doing the wrong things. The man is probably worse than Jeffrey Epstein...I mean...I don't know. Who knows? When you read that some minors were also victims. Sex trafficking, prostitution, racketeering conspiracy. Sexual abuse, kidnapping... My head is like spinning ... Imagine the sharing of STDs, they can't control themselves?? who was the man? To the point that some religious figures are cited in the guests list. Yoooooo!!! my goodness! How did he get all these connections of high profiles like the Epstein's list. Po! po! po! The showbiz is a shocking world. The question is now if you ever want to share to the world your passion how are you going to do it? Maybe be in Hollywood without being in Hollywood? Or simply not at all? Tell me what you think. Like not attending parties or ...I don't know anymore. Wow! I have no more words to add. Oil is not enough o! I beg! I am done for tonight. This is something to think about as I am closing this post. Now we know who we have been admiring...like I always say , DO Not envy what you don't know. I enjoy my simple life. I don't have everything but at least I have my peace of mind. Not judging...just saying. This is who they are. smh. Not judging but this is my humble conclusion as I close this post that I didn't prepare. ( Sorry for misspelled words etc) I wrote as I felt and thought. The Bible says in Mark 8:6 " what shall it profit a man, if he shall gain the world, and lose his own soul" Stop idolizing these humans! Stop idolizing them! Dear Readers the most important things are not the things of this world that will get rotten with times and not the fame but the salvation of our Soul in Jesus Christ. Wake up! Our world is in trouble. it is a mess! Let's get back to the basic things and the true one which is the fear and love of God. it is still time. Thank you for reading and PROTECT YOUR CHILDREN 🙏and You, Men of God preach the TRUTH TO PEOPLE

Happy Sunday! 🌞

Happy Sunday! and sunny day for me ☀️ Happy Sunday I send you a wave of sunlight ✨️ These are the flowers of my aunt's garden in Libreville my hometown. I think they are called the Hortensia. (There was a time I was trying to learn flowers names bc I like them so much) I love flowers and in my family, women (my Mother and my Aunts who are my Mothers) garden a lot. They have what we call in French green hands. They like to plant and they have good hands. These flowers, I took this picture a Sunday afternoon when we were sitting outside to enjoy the sun and the weather. I love the way she takes good care of her garden and flowers with Love. My Mom does th same thing in France when I go visiting her, there are always plants and flowers on the balcony of her appartment. My aunt also is not living far from our coast side (the beach) in Libreville my hometown. Every Sundays after church, I would go with my son visiting her and my other aunt. My son likes his grandmothers so so much! Some Saturdays, in Libreville, I would leave my appartement to go visit my uncle (my mother's young brother) I enjoyed spending time to listen to him. He always have inspiring words and good advices when I was stuck in some decisions making about my home family duties. I feel blessed to have all this people ahead and around me. Also my cousins!!! Yes lol! My cousins I miss them all. Our times together as a family Anyway, this sunday I was thinking about that family routine. Saturday was the beach time or the swimming pool! Family♥️ is EVERYTHING!! La Baie des Tortues (The Bay of water Turtles) 🌴🌞

good times It was a good time and it will happen again

The Love of my Life is GOD.♥️ The second Loves are my family and my Land☀️🇬🇦 where I come from🌴... (But I love the world too because the world is beautiful)

Another Example...

That's why I keep saying that we need reprogrammation of our mind in Africa and change of our mindset. I observed and listen to my people a lot and I agree that there is a lot of work to do (and I include myself as an African) The mentality is too poor. Seriously we need to elevate our mindset. Our mentality is too poor. It will take time before the continent changes when you read and hear some people who think in a certain way...sigh. You are like...Ok! cool. So this is my response to this comment coming from some Africans. They say that some other Africans who are illegally or maybe legally in their country should go back to where they come from and fix their countries. Honestly! This is the first time I hear such things. They say they should Fix the problems of their countries so we will all enjoy a world of accountability and peace. My question here is where have you ever seen accountability in the world of politics? Since I was young I barely saw people paying for their wrong deeds and decision in politics. Usually those who are doing good for their countries are physically eliminated. but very few times I saw accountability. How many political leaders put countries in wars, in economical crisis...have they being accountable? I don't know. I have a question: Where in this world have you seen a country being fixed? The only place I think that exists is in some books that I read and it is mainly utopia. Utopia! I have never heard such comments in my entire life. Maybe some of them are stuck in the world of Voltaire. Yes, I say Voltaire because this makes no sense to me. When I hear this comment my head thinks about Eldorado a place of perfection described by Voltaire in his book Candide. Even countries in the world that are known to be powerful, their people are moving to other countries to find happiness. Now if you talk about illegals you can only blame your authorities who are not protecting your borders. But only ignorant Africans are those who are crazy about their borders because they can't look examples of European Union. If you talk about illegals, I don't know if refugees are included in this statement. Because as far as I read somewhere, refugees should not be kicked out of a country because it is a situation of life and death. I really don't know. When I read such things, it gives me headaches... I understand now why some friends told me they cannot be around some Africans. I don't blame them. The lesson I learn today is to be around people who have a good mindset. People who see things differently and who are not stuck in their world. However, you can see how the Immigration is a serious discussion in political debates, policies etc. This is my take on this discussion

Discussions and Stories//4

This is my last discussions of this week. Protecting our children. Is it OK to be overprotective when seeing how 😕 this world is nowadays. Actually i realized after reading and hearing many testimonies of people of my age even older than me that it had always been like that but covered a lot by families. sigh 😕 😞 it is sad... really sad... This is my take on

Is it bad to be overprotective of your children? I don't think it is wrong judged by my own experience. What I went through...

So protect your children! You must always check on them and TRUST NOBODY AROUND THEM Another discussion. Vanessa Caxeiro posted a live on her account where everybody could see her argumenting with her boyfriend while being pregnant. She said many things and how painful it is as a woman to meet a good man even when you are a good woman. She said that her boyfriend had allegedly beat her on the floor... She said how she has been treated by all of her boyfriends. People shared these live several times and showed their support to Vanessa. I mean it hurts to see another woman crying...especially when it comes to Love and relationship. This is something that I keep saying : LEAVE THEM! LEAVE THESE MEN! THEY DON'T LOVE YOU! they only use you. LEAVE THESE TOXIC RELATIONSHIPS! Wait patiently for the right one (if he happens to come somday...) I shared many of my thoughts on it and at the end I came to the conclusion that sometimes being Single is not the wrong decision. I mean take your time. That's why i don't believe in love pictures posted on social media .I learned to understand that it is not about what a man says but what HE DOES to PROVE HIS WORDS. A man who doesn't call you to speak on the phone with youb when u date isn't someone to believe and trust. He is not serious. A man who only text you when u date is not a mature person he is a boy. A Man who doesn't apologize is Immature. A man who doesn't show you love ❤️ has many personal issues. A man who cusses you is dealing with his own insecurities. Yes, I learned all that in my little years of dating. Really take your time and ask the most uncomfortable questions in the beginning before you get into a nightmare. Ask many questions ..If they get upset you know it is a big red flag.

Somewhere in the live she says, she keeps forgiving him. No! Vanessa! DO NOT FORGIVE what is not forgivable. DO NOT FORGIVE THE LACK OF RESPECT. We never forgive the way you are treated. DO not forgive when a man does not treat you right. LET HIM GO! GET OUT OF THIS RELATIONSHIP! LOVE GOD FIRST then LOVE YOURSELF. Today I do not look the same but I learned to accept the way I look today. I think i look better today than before 😅 because age gave me more maturity self confidence and i feel more like a woman ❤️🌺Learn to love yourself. When you love yourself completely no negative words will hurt you anymore. NEVER BEG FOR LOVE! That part has always been my limit. I can never beg for love from a man. If he is gone then he is gone. Let him go! The door is open to leave but not open to come back. The past is the past. If he treated you wrong in the first place and never apologized what's the point to take him back or to forgive and forgive and forgive him? That's why you have to love yourself first. An Immature man will be saying mean words to you (because he also deals with his insecurities), you will be smiling and respond to him: Hasta la vista Baby! No hard feelings but I am done with you,

I have sometimes been misunderstood in the dating world. They often see you like...something to...yes, It is sad that some men had the wrong opinion about me...but what could I do? Nothing! absolutely Nothing. Now I DON'T CARE! The only one who will be right one for me will never see me like that. I still have to remember to myself who I am. That's the most important part Video 2

Really ladies invest in yourself and be happy. Have a meaningful life. If you are married do not forget yourself. Have activities, time for yourself and passion on your own. Any way that was it for today . I see i have been regular and active these days in this blog. That's good right? **************************************************************************************************************************************************** Last time we had a special visit of Sally😊♥️ she was so sweet! She was such a good girl!

Thank you for reading and watching. I hope it was not hard to understand me... Let's watch now this beautiful song with these sexy guys🤭😉 ...Yes o!! Lol! We like to look at the candy crush guys but from afar oooo!!! Please I beg. We don't want headaches. it is Just good for the eyes😅😂

De Lá à Lá!🌺💋

De lá á lá! D'avant a maintenant! Coucou! Mes Ladies Un nouveau post en mode lookbook. Et oui, me voila de retour avec de nouvelles videos dans ce genre mais courtes cette fois en version OOTD👗. C'est juste un debut mais j'en ferai encore plus avec le temps. C'est juste une question d'etre inspiree et avoir le courage de se lever et le faire. Girl just want to have fun! Ça me fait gagner en temps de faire les shorts parce que faire des videos et les editer, ca prend du temps. Alors il y a quelques annees, j'essayais de creer des videos Try On. Maintenant oui j'ai beaucoup changé au cours des années. Moi, ma personne, mon corps...tout a changé et♥️ c'est tout a fait normal! Je ne suis plus la meme. Alors je quitte de lá á lá! Je m'accepte et m'aime telle que je suis. Et vous? I miss nothing, I am still the same inside. Love♥️⚘️ yourself with all the changes! Video 1: Ca c'etait avant! Il y a quelques annees quand je me perdais dans l'aventure et la nature pour aller filmer. Lol!

Et celles ci sont de ce mois. Toujours dans mon univers de la musique des 80's et 90's pour certaines. Je ne me savais pas autant inspiree. J'apprends et je vais m'ameliorer avec le temps mais les voila! Look 1🌺 Shein dress 👗 animal print. First time trying this style

Look 2🌺 Blue dress 👗 Naf Naf (French brand)

Look 3🌺 complete look Fashionova ( pair of 👖, white blouse and blue navy body

Look 4🌺 satin green blouse Zara and pants Fashionova

Look 5🌺White blouse Zara and black pants found at Macy's!

Look 6🌺 Orange blouse Mark New York and orange 🍊 pants Zoe Rachel body beige Zara

La question est la suivante: Qu'est ce que je porte sur moi que l'on voit parfois discretement en dessous de mes tenues😊. J'en avais parle une fois dans un de mes posts sur ce que j'aime a Libreville. C'est des chaines de perles que l'on met autour de la taille faites a la main. J'aime tout ce qui est fait a la main. C'est pour les femmes. Dans mon cas c'est culturel. On les met beaucoup en Afrique depuis enfant. Mes premiers etaient de couleurs bleu marines faites par ma grand mere. Avec le temps on les change et a present ces perles sont devenues plus variees et artistiques. Par exemple les miennes sont en perles rondes en, coquillages cauris et en papillons🦋 etc C'est tres feminin💋 mais c'est aussi culturel. On ne les montre pas comme ça sauf chez soi, a la piscine et a la plage😅!

En parlant de culture voici une robe de chez moi que j'aime Look 7🌺 made in Gabon 🇬🇦 ♥️

Look 8🌺 White body Fashionova and pair of 👖 Zara

Look 9🌺 White pair of pants Rachel Zoe and white blouse Zara accessories...sunglasses 🕶 @ Chanel, Shein, Tom Ford 👜 purses and pouch @ Otiti Design ♥️ Hat 👒 @ Aldo. Bracelets made kn Gabon 🇬🇦 handmade

Voila!C'etait le debut du commencement! Et oui j'en ferai d'autres💋 Merci pour votre visite et a bientot XOXO💋! We stay in the good mood with one of Janet Jackson's songs that I like

Stories and Discussions

Hello! dear Readers, I am back! Yes, I am back with some stories and memories in my youtube channel that I post here. I do my best to remain active. At least I will try to make some videos in the weekend like I did yesterday. You know it is like you feel like and when you dont feel like you are not inspired then you do not Lol! Actually, I have so many things to share but sometimes time is not enough to shoot a video and I forget. I won't write a lot. Honestly, writing takes time that's why I switch to talking! It is much easier to share stories and thoughts when you talk. You know I am talkative sometimes. When some of the people I knew in the past used to say:" O! you talk too much!" It hurt my feelings but I realized later how mean it was from them to say because I was not that talkative at all but I understand something: "be where you are loved. Be with people who care about you. Those who care for you. Be with people who genuinely like and love you." Being confronted to mean people make you stronger and you become a force. You love and accept yourself with time the way you are. I will never again in my life entertain friendship or love that are not for me anymore. Truly it is a painful experience and waste of time. I wish I would have known that earlier but it is never too late to learn from your mistake. Stay and Be where you are accepted for who you are. Never force to be with people (Or a "Lover") that you think should be with you. No! You worth more than that. Well that's the thought from me of the day for you dear Readers. Since I understood it, I have less and less disappointment. It helps me to focus on me and my closed ones only. Focus on those who I represent a lot and those in my life who will positively remember me after I will be gone... Ok! These are the stories Video 1: A Special Lady that I worked for in Dallas Texas back in the days when I was a student

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Because of the recent videos of some activists from my country showing the condition of public schools in my hometown, I have more memories of what I went through there. Poor kids...it is a nightmare to go to school ooo!! Time will come we will change all this (I want to change all this! May God help me!) Video 1

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And that's when he will be like: "wow!!!You did good in class guys. Your grades are amazing!" or sometimes the teacher is upset to see they did good in class. You did good when in fact they all copied the answers given and done by two other students from another class and those who were good in the classroom too would share their answers. It was a game! Since the teacher didn't want them to do good then they found their way for doing good and pass the test exams. Hey ya! My little city o! wonder should never end. I am done for today. Lol!! Thank you for reading and watching...